Christmas - Written in December, 2000

     

      A family gets together between the blazing fire and sparkling Christmas tree. Presents are passes around to everyone gathered around. Everyone except one little girl. She’s new to the family. Her new mommy and daddy just brought her home last week. The noise and people and laughter are overwhelming. She’s never seen so many people in one place before and certainly never so boisterous. No one seems to notice her as she’s introduced to “your new cousin” and “your new grandma.” The other children giggle, surrounded by brightly decorated parcels

     

     She timidly walks to stand behind the old man in the Santa had passing out the gifts and taps him on the shoulder. She looks at him with a question in her eye. He shrugs and continues to hand out gifts. She goes to the corner and sits there, tears trying desperately to spill over and smear her cheeks with their saltiness.

                

     After presents are handed out, eggnog is passed around as people tell stories of Christmas past. The little girls is left alone, even by her new mommy and daddy. She sits politely, hands folded in her lap and listening, still struggling not to cry. As the party winds down and people leave, her new mommy picks her up and moves her by the door so she can tell everyone “Bye” and thank them for coming over. They wander through the door, barely acknowledging her existence, until a strange looking child approaches her, face distorted through her tears.

                

     He stops and stands in front of her. For a moment, she’s not sure what she’s supposed to do, then he hands her a small stuffed bear that he had been clutching tightly. Her tears finally come, rushing from her eyes in torrents. They aren’t tears of sadness, but tears of joy because one little boy had the heart to notice the newest member of his family.

Brainstorm - Written December 19,2000

     A brainstorm contemplated raining on my day and I could hear its feuding pitter-patter on my thoughts as an irrational concept began forming in my mind. Just as I was about to act on it, the rational part of my brain disagreed, sending a bolt of electricity to destroy that nasty, unwise thought. That illogical idea retaliated just in time to send his own lightning dart back. He laughed thunder when his shot hit its target. Rational dodged, the bolt barely singeing her side and sent hail upon irrational. As the ice balls were pounding his tender flesh, Irrational dispatched a series of tornadoes. Rational was sent spinning out of control, but regained her composure almost without incident.

     Just as she was about to once more argue her side, smoky clouds surrounded her, blocking her view. She howled her anger, wind scattering the clouds like frightened pigeons. She looked and caught Irrational grinning like he'd done something clever. This made her anger rise and she charged with the force of a hurricane. She caught Irrational off guard sending him whirling out of control. He seized his balance, relaying a tsunami of his quarrel. Rational early lost her balance, but found her feet just in time. She bellowed her rage, my head rattling with their feud. Irrational was knocked backwards and out of my thoughts with the force of her thunder. Rational sent her final blast of lightning before she was satisfied and smiled.

Wooded Winter Kingdom - Written December 11, 2000

     I stroll slowly through a wooded winter kingdom. No longer bare as they were in autumn, the trees are covered in a light dusting of snow. The setting sun reflects off the snow creating sparkle. A chilling gust of wind whistles through the branches, making the skin on my face prickle. A few snowflakes trickle from the branch above me, one landing just below my eyes and melting. The drop flows down my cheek like a tear, freezing my already cold face.

     Deeply I breathe the crisp cold air that turns cheeks and noses bright red. The air is filled with the scent of an impending snowstorm with just a hint of freezing sap. Ahead is a house with a chimney puffing smoke from a blazing fire. The breeze wafting towards me carries the smell of burning pine.

     Two squirrels scamper by close enough I can hear their claws on the branch. The chattering balls of fur knock several clumps of snow onto my upturned face. I open my mouth in surprise and accidentally catch falling flakes on my tongue, water with a tinge of ozone and wood chips filling my taste buds.

     I shake my head, a cloud of breath forming just beyond my lips and continue on my trek home. All I can think about is warming by the fire with a hot cup of apple cider. Getting my energy up, I sprint the quarter mile left back home, breath puffing behind me like a train.

Bye, Dad - Written December 13, 2000

     When she turned and saw her father fall, she closed her eyes and shook her head, not believing what had just happened. A minute ago, she had wished the man would disappear. After witnessing the truck smack into his side and seeing him lying on the ground, surrounded by people, she felt dazed and out of place. She slowly began walking, almost strolling to where her father lay. A single tear escaped from her eye as a single word rasped through her unused vocal chords.

     "No."

     She couldn't hear herself say the word. The familiar silence that has plagued her all her life was screaming, desperate to be free.

     After an eternity, she reached her father and knelt by his side, grasping his clammy hand. There wasn't much blood; she only saw a trickle coming from his ear. His eyes looked through her at something unseen. The blazing fire she'd always seen burning there had dimmed to a spark. There was little recognition in his eyes for his baby girl. She knew that when he looked at her flaming red hair and pool blue eyes, he didn't see her. He saw her mother, who had left this world when she was young. The look of love in his eyes what not that of a father for his daughter, but one of a husband for his wife. He struggled to reach up and stroke her cheek. He smiled the smile she hadn't seen since before her mother died.

     Still, her heart sank when her mother's name formed on his lips in that frustrating stillness she knew so well. Her mind raced with torturing thoughts. 'I shouldn't have lied,' 'I shouldn't have run off like that,' and 'Don't leave me! I need to say I'm sorry! Please!' She wanted - no needed to scream them so Heaven and Hell could hear her wail. More tears brimmed and spilled over, smearing her mascara as sobs shook her entire body.

     She felt hands grabbing her arms pulling her away. She wanted to fight them and stay with her father, but she could only manage to reach out and brush his fingers. His arm fell and the spark darkened to a spent coal. Suddenly she could move again. She beat at the paramedics dragging her. Her strength surprised them as she wrenched free and frantically raced to her father's side. As they pulled her away, she saw the spark flash again for just an instant and in that flash he finally saw her. She felt a strange calm pass through her. She understood. He needed to go.

     She closed her eyes and sighed in acceptance as one final tear streamed down her cheek. For once she was glad she was filled with absolute quiet as she thought, "Bye, Dad."

Prey - Written December 19, 2000

     He slinks through the grass, stalking his prey. He can smell its delicious flavor. He breathes it in, mouth watering in anticipation. It's unaware of his presence, but it's poised and ready to flee, just in case a predator is near. He knows he needs to attack soon before it senses hims, so he braces his powerful hind legs, ready to spring. A noise distracts him and his target bounds off. He pounces after it, cursing himself for waiting too long. His victim dashes all over, winding around rocks, trees and bushes, feet kicking dust into his face. He follows just a breath behind, spine acting like a spring and tail whirling.

For a second, he can't see his morsel, but he continues running using his sensitive ears and nose to search it out. He can smell its fear and it is so enticing. Finally he spots it, still bounding like a mad man. He smiles to himself as he sees his chance. His game makes a fatal mistake by stumbling and lagging slightly. He reaches out his paw and smacks the animal's rump. His claws make purchase and he climbs on the back on his food-to-be. It bucks, kicking him in the chest and knocking the wind out of him. He loses grip and falls to the ground.

He lays on his side helpless, trying desperately to get air back into his deprived lungs as he watches his missed meal hop away, still bucking. He starts breathing again and pulls himself up to a sitting position. He casually licks his paw and looks around for more food. Maybe he can find some leftovers.

The Inglorious Writer

Ever since I was a little girl, I wanted to be a writer. An author of novels. I wanted to be like the authors I loved and respected - Stephen King, Anne McCaffrey, Isaac Asimov, Frank Herbert, etc. I had many great ideas and I even started several would-be novels, but I could never finish anything. I have a few one page stories I wrote when I was 16 in a world literature class that I dug up while moving into my new house. I'm going to copy them here and I hope it inspires me to continue to write and maybe one day, I'll be able to complete at least one novel. I doubt I'll be published, but if I can at least get one written, I'll see that as a great accomplishment.